please give me a good day...

Today was a horrible day riding. I came home and cried....a LOT. Now, I've gone out and eaten a lot of sweet stuff. I did NOT drink though, which I wouldn't on a weekend and I also resisted buying cigarettes. I gave away all the partially finished packs I had accumulated on nights out drinking. Giving them away was a good thing because otherwise I'd be smoking right now.

The reason riding was such a downer is because my horse flipped out and then my teacher got pissed at me for not doing what she told me to and it was such an emotional rollercoaster...a lot of fear and near tears. I then came home and bemoaned my very existence. Really.

And now that I'm eating junk food, I am probably NOT going to feel too hot tomorrow, when I am likely to have another scary ride. Oh well. I think I'll just try to get some sleep tonight. The lack of it last night probably has not helped.

ready to roll....

Well, I'm up and trying to get out by 6:30 when all I want to do is sleep. But, that's not an option because I'm clear-headed and though not rested because I had coffee too late last night in order to stay awake during Noh, I am capable of getting to the stable and riding.
There is no remorse, no regret for having stayed out all night, dropped lots of money, lied to my riding teacher about why I'm canceling, BECAUSE I came home and went to bed WITHOUT a drink. Great stuff.