just come home...

Home for the evening. Ready to turn in (though I just got in there's no time if I want to be up early). I am sober! And I know that sounds really bad, like I was drunk every day, I wasn't, but the "heh, look, sober!" part comes because it was a long day at the office (union striking, story needed to be finished, proofed, printed), it was pay day, it's Friday and I had reason to go to my usual drinking spots to meet someone. BUT, I defied the odds and came home. I don't know. It just doesn't seem worth it. If it wasn't a fun night I'd be looking to blame someone and that's not right. So, I just came home. Hmm. Sounds like ad copy for some social group. Sad-looking kids and a wife at the dinner table, Place set for Daddy and one kid is saying, "Just come home, Daddy, just come home." Other picture shows the guy lurching into yet another bar, obviously not his first, arm around a coworker, they both singing, neckties around their heads, briefcases swinging. Yeah, typical Tokyo Friday payday night!

good times...

I was just thinking yesterday of how many days it's been without a drink. Only eight. I can't believe it's so few. It feels like ages. I wish I could say I have given up drinking. I know I haven't but I can honestly say that right now I don't want to drink and wish I could just leave it all behind, as if booze had never been a part of my life. And, that's another thing. The other day I was thinking that all along I'd been saying I didn't drink that much and yet I was thinking back on all the memories and they were all alcohol related. Every time I met people. Any time I went somewhere with people it was almost always linked to alcohol. Not that I had a lot to drink, but definitely always at least a couple drinks....and yeah, when I think about it, always more than a couple drinks.
It's frightening really to think of how many years were spent imbibing. What for, really?
Was listening to The Byrds yesterday, ah, Eric Burdon...

"When I think of all the good times that I've wasted
having good times...
When I was drinkin'
should've been thinkin'
When I was fighting
I could've done the right thing
All of that boozin'
I was really losin'
Good times..."