nerves...

I am so nervous and nerves have always translated to anxiety and near constant eating with me. I am sitting here trying my hardest to NOT allow this to happen.
About a week ago, totally out of the blue, I got a call for a possible new position. I've met them a couple times and today is another meeting. It would be a BIG change and financially I don't know if I could hack it. It would also mean a LOT more work and huge responsibility. But, it would mean personal growth.....why is growth always linked with such unpleasantries...lol. So, let's see. I was too nervous to go see my horse today because I knew I would be thinking about this meeting today and not able to concentrate on her (which translates to a bad lesson and possible freakouts by her).
On a positive note, it is now 40 days without any alcohol or cigarettes and sugar isn't far behind. My weight is slowly, VERY slowly dropping and I feel a lot better. I also think I look a lot better, but that is relative, isn't it?
Well, here's keeping my fingers crossed that things are going to be looking up REAL soon!!