It's just over a week that I haven't had any alcohol and I've been feeling really good. But give me one day in the office and I'm looking for something to give me a kick, basically because I've been bored out of my mind all day no matter how busy I've been and I'm feeling/knowing that I am wasting my life for a paycheck.
Evening, the bars beckoned. As I passed one, I would have been hard put to not stop in if I'd seen a buddy drinking there. And this bar is open to the street so you can see in very easily. Luckily, no one was there and I didn't look too hard.
During the day, with one guy moaning about how he needed "a liquid lunch" and another boozer back in the office after some days off, I really felt surrounded by temptation. Oh, yes, and invites to four drink-involving events came in or are out there waiting for a reply. I make excuses, say I'm busy, say I have work. If I say that I'm not drinking then they still want me to go and I could but it would be TOO, TOO tempting to drink.
Sigh. I feel the cockiness setting in, that feeling that things are going well and I can have just one night on the town...NOT a good sign.
Strength. Strength and some fun, that's what I need right now.
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